Another Night In NYC

"Why does it hurt so much?"

"So that you can't forget."

"What if I want to?"

"You don't. You may get used to not having something you want, but it never stops hurting because you never stop wanting it. And if you want it so badly...you never really want to forget it, do you?"

"No."

"No indeed."

You learn something new every day. I'm at something of a loss to come up with exactly what it was I learned today, but I'm pretty damn certain it was something.

Everytime I'm beginning to wonder if some things ever change they go and change in a way I never would have expected, and then I'm left trying to figure out what the fuck just happened.

"Don't you just love the Jonas Brothers?"

"I wouldn't recognize a Jonas Brother if one crawled up my ass and exploded. (awkward pause trying to figure out what to say to terrified thirteen year old) Not that one would ever do that. Really. I swear. Shit. I should have just said no shouldn't I?"

We did our annual youth ministry trip to NYC today. As usual it was a blast. As usual I'm left wondering what the hell I would do without these kids.

I've got myself in something of a pickle as of late. I'm not entirely sure how to get out of it. Not entirely sure I want to. But as it seems to happen with me and most things I'm just one collosal coincidence away from the entire world just blowing up and solving my problems for me. Till then I'll just bide my time and try not to hurt anyone too badly.

Finally, it's been exactly five years since I started blogging. That's something. Or maybe it's not. I don't know.

"What do you think the most fucked up thing you could say in church would be?"

"Something about Jesus and blowjobs. (awkward pause) I came up with that entirely too quickly didn't I?"